The fatigue.
More fatigue.
Sleep escapes me.
Can’t keep my eyes open.
Pain.
Every joint there is pain.
No magic pill to ease the pain.
Things slip from my fingers.
Nerve endings are jumpy.
My head feels like it will explode.
Cheeks are red.
My skin burns.
Please don’t touch.
Must wake up.
Another day to endure.
My insides are tangled knots.
I try to smile.
I hide what I am feeling.
Just to go on another day.
Will not get depressed.
Have to give each day a fighting chance.
Sleep beckons.
Just a few minutes more.
Awakened by more pain.
A few tears.
No one will hear.
It is my silent battle.
Sick.
Everything makes me nauseated.
One more day.
Legs are twitchy.
Eyes are dry.
Trying to smile.
Hiding the fear.
More pain.
More drugs.
More sleep.
Hands are forever asleep.
Mouth is dry today.
I fell again.
More bruises.
Maybe sleep a few minutes more.
Five more minutes please.
In dreams the pain is gone.
Dizzy today.
Achy.
Just blame it on the weather.
Vision is blurred.
Just tired.
Skin is crawling.
Just the weather.
Maybe I will take a nap.
Just a power nap.
Sleep.
Peaceful dreams.
No pain.

mtheve 5/13/2010